weddings weddings weddings!

well....

its safe to say that i have wedding fever. i feel like all my friends are getting married and i'm not. so i feel a little left out :( where's my prince charming?!?!

anywho.

today, my lovely friend, kylea, got married. the day started out not so good. when i got there, it was starting to sprinkle and she was really upset (the wedding was supposed to be outside)

but then it cleared up, and it was all better. all of us girls got ready and looked pretty.

and then...it started dumping rain again. They decided to move the wedding inside.

kylea got into her veil, and at the point, i started crying. debbie said to me, "you've had a baby. you can get through this!" lol. of course it doesn't compare, but she still looked beautiful.

then it was time to line up and walk out. i was first in line and had never practiced inside, so i wasn't sure how it was going to happen exactly. turns out, my dress decided the wedding needed a little more excitement. so once i got to the end of the aisle, i turned and my dress got caught on knocked over one of the aisle markers! the candle inside of it went out and the little lantern's top broke off. i wasn't sure what to do, so i just kept walking and smiling and someone picked it up. oops.

the ceremony was beautiful and the preacher - long winded. but i cried again when they said their vows when she first walked down the aisle.

it was a lot of fun and i'm so glad that i decided to participate! unfortunately, the day didn't go as well for my mom with the babies. apparently, they were both screaming bloody murder like the whole day. but, everyone survived!!

me, myself and i.

kylea and ilamin seeing each other for the first time!

beautiful bride

flowers

all of us on the pool table

"shots"

crazy...

guess who caught the bouquet?!

my shoes and flowers

its my party and i'll cry if i want to...

but i won't, because i'm making jordan's party the best one EVER!! i finished his invitations last night and i absolutely love them. they're really cute and i made them, so that makes them extra special for me.

i feel like it can't get here soon enough, but in reality, its only 53 days away. even though that seems like a long time - its not.

anyway....weddings. kylea's wedding is on saturday (HolyCrapItsSoSoon) and i have my dress, my shoes, a beautiful pearl ring/earrings/necklace and i know how i'm doing my make up and nails. now i just need to figure out how i'm gonna do my hair. any suggestions?

and my little bestie, shawna's wedding is the first week of october. i can't believe it! but i'm happy she's with who she's with. she hasn't had the best of luck with men and this one is like her knight in shining armor. so, i'm happy!

but i must admit, i kind of feel like i'm left out or something. of all the girls that i grew up with, after this weekend, i'll be the only unmarried one. it makes me a little sad (because i'm also the oldest) but i'd rather be not married than married to someone that isn't right for me. and in all honesty...i really don't ever see myself married. i mean, don't get me wrong...i would love to be married! but i just don't think that its going to to happen for me. we'll see. i don't want to be or sound cynical, but i guess i am.

well, i didn't expect to take this turn in this little entry. surprise!

p.s.

i think this is the first blog i've posted without a picture...eee gads.

10 months old...

oye.

still no signs of walking or teeth. both of which i am 100% ok with. i can't think of anything i would like less than teeth chomping down on my nipples.

he's pretty much still amazing :D obviously. he's getting into a lot more trouble i.e. taking things out of/dumping the trash, biting (and swallowing) small pieces of christmas ornaments, pulling knives out of the dishwasher and jumping in surprise when he's caught doing something naughty. he also likes to pull books off of bookshelves. but, i don't mind taking the bad with the good.

i was looking at pictures from just a few months back and compared to now, he literally has NO hair and so much baby fat! i can't believe how fast he's turning into a little person. i have a hard time imagining him as a toddler and i certainly have no desire to even imagine what he'll be like as a teenager or anything beyond that. being a mom is weird sometimes.

anyway, i forgot to weigh and measure him today, so i'll get on that tomorrow.

he taught himself to clap! one day he just started doing a little golf clap lol. its the cutest thing and he's so smart!!!!

ok. i'm done bragging. for now.

i guess he was tired of standing?

love him.

decorations

its naptime here in the brock household, so mommy has decided to finish making the decorations for jordan's birthday party! the little whale pod is 99% finished. i just need to add the little water sprays once the date is closer. the timeline is also 99% finished. all that needs to be done there is to have the pictures added! i know exactly how the decorations will be put in place and i'm just so excited for his big day to get here! well. kind of. anyway, here are some pictures of the whale family and the timeline. OH! i almost forgot! i finished the cupcake stand too! YAY!!!

next stop...invitations.

naughty naughty naughty

i was in the shower and i kept hearing this weird noise. so i pulled the curtain open, and this is what i saw:

that's his "uh oh" face.

you can't see it very well, but he has a little piece of toilet paper on the corner of his mouth leftover from eating it...

vacation...

6 hours in a car with a baby who hates his carseat = not fun. however...disneyland, a beach and an aquarium = lots o' fun!

wednesday, we traveled. and thursday, we went to ocean beach where i thought i saw a jellyfish. turns out, it was just a condom. thank you ocean beach goers. ick. we sunscreened the babies and then i got distracted by the water and off we went.

we all got sunburned reeeeeeeeeeeeally bad. except the babies. well, ashlyn got a little sun on her shoulders. but my little biscuit just got more brown.

mom and i volunteered a while back for the "give a day get a disney day". we made a crapload of homicide survivor ribbons and we got free disneyland tickets. so, on friday, we went to

the happiest place on earth!

we didn't do hardly any "adult" rides except its a small world. because you can't go to disneyland and not go on that ride.

but we had a great time doing all the kid stuff. especially toontown!! my favorite.

we got to meet mickey mouse but jordan cried. he was fine with all the other characters, so i don't know what it was about mickey that made him burst into tears! oh well.

saturday, we went to the aquarium of the pacific. it was packed full of people. worse than disneyland in my opinion. but it was neat to see all the sea creatures up close! i even got to touch a jellyfish:

a stingray:

and a tiger shark! (this is the bigger version because i don't have a picture of the little one):

after the aquarium closed, we went to alamitos beach and wrote stuff in the sand since we forgot to do it at the other beach.

on a sidenote**jordan hates the beach! i put his little feet in the sand

and he started screaming and shaking. i don't know if i let his feet get in the water too quickly and it scared him, or what. but he didn't like it at all. he loves baths and showers and the pool so much so i thought, hey. the ocean is kind of like a big pool! he'll love it! oops. my dad pointed out that maybe he was scared because it was so big and waves were crashing and what not. either way, he wasn't impressed with what the ocean had to offer. he did like the sand though!

so after alamitos beach, we were headed back to san diego to our final hotel. buuuuuut....we got lost. we stopped 3 times to ask for directions and everyone was an idiot. anyway, we finally made it to the hotel (2 hours passed our intended time of arrival) and when we got up to the room, there was only one bed. for 3 adults. it was a king size, but there was no way that all 3 of us (plus jordan) would sleep comfortably in a king size bed. turns out that hotwire.com messed us up. again. that's 3 out of 4 nights that they screwed up. *shakes head in disbelief* anyway, the hotel gave us an air mattress and a pack n play and we survived the night.

so, now we're back and i'm sleepy and have to get up early to go return the rental car. ugh. besides the bumps along the way, vacation was fun but hardly the relaxing getaway i was hoping for.

30 letter challenge - letter 4 - the person you hate the most

~the person you hate the most~

rick,

you are a pathetic excuse for a man/husband/father/uncle/human being. you have taken so much from me over the years. my innocence. my ability to fully trust anyone. what should have been happy childhood memories. you have been present in all of my relationships, whether it was a friendship or a romantic relationship. you have destroyed any semblance of what i thought an uncle should be.

i have been angry with you for so long and i will not allow you to control me any more.

i choose to forgive you by doing this. i free myself from the bond i had with you through hatred, anger and resentment. i take my power back and gain the freedom that only forgiveness can bring. you cannot hurt me and you cannot control me. i forgive only for myself.

no longer your slave,

jessica

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy

so tired, but i figured i should write SOMETHING.

today was danielle and virgil's wedding. it was gorgeous and lots of fun! we (meaning my mom) spent all day decorating the cake. it was ridiculous how fast they did it though. mom still wasn't completely happy with it, but i thought the colors went really well with the color scheme of their wedding. but, she's a perfectionist and was kind of sad about the whole thing. i say she's loco, but that's just me. everyone said it was beautiful and super yummy ;)

our vacation is nearing and i'm so excited!!!!!! i feel like a 5 year old counting down the days to disneyland ha ha. but i seriously love the crap out of that place and now that i have a kid, that gives me full reign to re-live being a kid there. woo hoo!!! anyway, i'm pretty stoked, but mostly i'm tired right now. so if i think of something more interesting to say, i'm sure i'll write about it later.

oh yea! so, i wanted to find a cute mickey mouse shirt for jordan to wear to disneyland. instead, i decided to make one for him. (in retrospect, maybe not such a good idea...) my stitching is obviously sub par, but oh well. this is what he'll be wearing to disneyland. ugly or not. **the perks of being a mommy**