new york state of mind

SOOOOOO....we didn't crash after all *yay* and we've been here since the 21st. we're keeping really busy doing lots of fun things with ALL the family. we've gone hiking and been to pennsylvania and back. we've seen cows and horses and skinny donkeys. we've seen gorgeous flowers and waterfalls. i've gotten to know my aunts a lot better which is a lot of fun. i love hearing stories and experiences and learning things from them.

jordan just seems to be getting bigger by the day! i love it and hate it all at the same time. he does cute things like:

• roll over (but he almost rolled off the bed last night. which gave me a mini heart attack)
• tries to crawl for things he wants i.e. mommy's camera or toothbrush, or anything he can choke on :/
• he throws major temper tantrums now. they're pretty cute, but very naughty. he wiggles around like a little worm and yells and his face gets all red. i try not to laugh, but sometimes, i can't help myself.
• he has this adorable laugh that melts me on the spot. i can't hardly stand how friggin' cute he is. yowza! i am a proud mommy.

what else....my cousin, julie, is having a baby boy, so i plan on sending her all jordan's beebee clothes *sad face* i warned her about not being able to find cute boy clothes, but she'll be off to germany in like a week. maybe she'll have better luck finding them there. if she does, SHE BETTER SEND ME SOME!

yesterday, we went to treman state park and buttermilk falls. they both have really beautiful waterfalls. its amazing how much more you appreciate being able to see things like WATER when you live in the desert. but i'm sure people that live out here in the east, would say the same thing about cacti. or whatever pretty things we have in the desert.

we hiked up to the top of the falls (a beautiful view) and the rest of the crew (mom, aunt becky, jonathon and jen) hiked up some more of the trail. it was really nice to be able to spend some quality time with my baby alone. we even got to take a nap in the grass in front of the waterfall! so relaxing...ZzZzZz...

today, we're going to blow glass. my cousin did it a while ago and she said it was a lot of fun, so i want to try it. so, in a few hours, i'll be the proud maker of a glass blown wind chime! we'll see how that turns out. the website said it would take a whopping 40 minutes to do it and i'm not sure i have the patience for that. we shall soon find out....

leavin' on a jet plane

i should most definitely be asleep right now since we have to leave the house at 4:15 am. buuuut, i just finished packing so here i sit.

i've never been afraid of flying. and now that i have a child, i'm TERRIFIED to fly. all i can think about is the plane crashing. i guess the silver lining to that dark and annoying cloud is that at least if it crashes, we'll be together. that's awful.

anyway, tomorrow's series of flights to new york will be jordan's first, obviously. so i'm hoping he does well with it. the pediatrician said that planes are so pressurized now that his ears shouldn't pop. so, cross your fingers for him. and your eyes too.

if you're the praying kind, please send some up for me. i'll be doing more than my fair share of it throughout the day....

if one more dancing fool smacks me in the head...

last night, i went on a daddy-daughter date with my dad (obviously) we went to a mr. boogie woogie concert. it was a great concert but here's my problem. when you're at a bar trying to watch someone play the piano, it becomes difficult when there's a dance floor in FRONT of all the chairs. we sat on the side and i kept getting whacked in the head by some annoying wanna be dancers. after the 2nd time, i put my arm up and they ran into that instead. i should have tripped them.

i digress....

so, jordan turned 6 months old yesterday. i can hardly believe how fast the time is going. it went by so quickly when i was pregnant, but this is NOTHING compared to that. He's sitting up by himself, he pulls up on me to stand, he smiles and laughs and cries and he's beautiful. everyone says he looks like me, but i just don't see it. but at least i don't see HIM in jordan's face either. sometimes i think about it and i'm left in amazement at how something so violent and evil could render someone so perfect and innocent. i wish he could stay like this forever, but i know he has to grow up and forge his own life. i think that will be the hardest part of motherhood...letting go. i can't believe i'm already thinking about this. yeesh.

in other news, jordan has his 6 month well baby check up today. which means shots and lots of 'em. *sad face* so i'm sure there will be an update to this post later on today.

****back from the doctor's appointment. results? 16 lbs 5 oz and 27 in long. 5 shots = very grumpy baby****

The Happiest Day Of My Life...

was october 18, 2009. that's the day that my gorgeous son was born. he came into the world, and to be honest with you, i wasn't sure how i would feel about being a mommy. but what they say about falling in love with your child instantly? its true. or at least it was for me. it wasn't like a bolt of lighting or anything cheesy like that. it was just...there. effortless. i saw his sweet little face and i kissed his nose and i was in love.

he looked at me like he knew exactly who i was; and the first night as his mommy, was exhausting, but magical. i wasn't sure if i would know how to do anything baby boy related. and as it turns out, i didn't. but i had plenty of nurses there to help me out. and of course, my wonderful mom and dad!

6 months have passed, and each day i look at my son and i'm overwhelmed with that same feeling of love that i had the very first day i laid eyes on him. every day he does something precious and new and every day i'm so proud to be his mother.