i can't sleep.

this is so ridiculous right now. i need sleep. badly. and all i can do is think about douchebag. i finally deleted all the text messages he sent me. now i need to delete his pictures, emails and phone number.

this is so irritating.

i don't know why i feel so attached to him. its not like we DID anything except go on some dates. its got to be because of jordan's response to him. that's the only thing i can think of that makes some kind of sense. dating after having a baby sucks. sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks.

i hate having this feeling in the pit of my stomach. i hate having tears well up for no reason. i hate going about my day wondering about him. i hate feeling tempted to call him but not feeling strong enough to erase his phone number. ugh.

what. is. wrong. with. me.

thank you for waking up jordan. i might have become a puddle of tears just now if it weren't for your sweet cry.